Insomnia

Should be sleeping, should be sleeping, should be sleeping
Not
Mindful calm, mindful calm, mindful calm
Can’t
Noisy rain
Skylight drumming
No dreaming tonight
Sit in dark
Room is ghostly
Only choice to write

Curtains missing
Blanket on
Toes tucked in at least
Sky pale grey
A while till day
No bird, nor bee, nor beast

Garden shapes loom live and large
As if they would come in
Planes asleep
No sound from street
Fat rain the only din

Roofs look slick
I tap, I click
Eyes tired, but not my head
I hear the world
Not yet uncurled
The sense to rest in bed

A peaceful start
No heavy heart
But heavy lids for sure
Long day ahead
Far from my bed
Where I’ll try and sleep once more

 

 


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